The Public Diary

We all know how hard it is to concentrate these days. Be it in life, in meditation or in studies. Focus is ever lost amidst all the distractions.  This post is going to revolve about the effort that goes in if you decide to take up studies after a gap of a few years. Especially, when there is no environment at your place to accommodate you for the same. Closure of public places, specifically libraries, in this hovering pandemic situation is only adding salt to the wounds. (That's a separate thing that I never went there for studies even when they were open). So, the other day I was finding a corner in my house where the sounds of Youtube videos or the conversations of any of the family members would not disturb me. But I guess I forgot to figure in the biggest challenge to silence. My nephew. A seven year old. When I opened my books half-heartedly, my nephew bang opened the room door. He asked me using his standard dialogue, "Can you play with me?" I denied outright.  

Confession: Trust me, when I came up with this edgy, or say, eye-catching title, I felt like it is clickbait . Just like those videos on Youtube wherein the content has no connection with the caption. It is there merely to attract the masses. By bullet, I related it to the 'Bullet train' concept. As in, speaking at the speed of a bullet. We siblings are told from childhood that we speak fast. They call it is in our heredity. That our father also speaks at a faster pace. However, I never really found his speed more than usual. In fact, I find him a little bit on the slower side. But his next-generation sure speaks faster. I know it is a trait to be worked upon. People who process slowly find it difficult to understand the fast stream of words. They would request to repeat the sentence or simply ask to speak slowly.  I remember I participated in a reading contest  8th or 9th standard. On my turn, I went and read out a whole piece of paper just within a few minutes. The supervisi